thoughts and feelings are too complicated to put into words
to describe them with language
is impossible.
there’s something ethereal about life
something so ghostly and incomprehensible
intangible , it holds such a lack of palpability
that we all struggle to communicate
the depths and intricacies of our feelings
but i hope that
if you’re out there
maybe you can feel the things I’m feeling
maybe you can forgive me
and give me a second chance
maybe you can understand what I’m feeling
maybe you feel the same way
maybe we both screwed up
or maybe it was just me
maybe the guilt stops me from feeling anymore
stops me from being anything meaningful
I’m talking to you, yet i cant talk to you at the same time
i want to thank you
and i want to apologize
i want to lay my heart bare and i want to run away
all at the same time
and i wish it were easier
to feel
to love
in the way that’s natural to oneself
but nobody will ever comprehend me
because there is nothing to comprehend but a sad, terrible mess
a flagrant violation of what
should be human and what you
think is human
and am i a human
because youre a human
i think im just less than human
something less
lesser
worse
down the drain
i hurt you
and i hurt myself
and it all hurts
why does it all hurt
why did i kill it off
i killed everything
a murderer